So the past week has been a rush from one thing to another! Julian and i have set a date for our wedding, and seeing as thats in less than one month, i, personally am going nuts trying to get everything set for it. i dont understand why im having such a difficult time with it, seeing as its only his family and mine attending, but i am :( . Trying to find someone to marry us on a low budget has been the hardest thing. I got my wedding band the other night, now all i have to do is find a summer dress that will fit my growing tummy and that i auctally like the look of on me! I think this is the stage in my pregnacy where i feel like an elephant so nothing i wear feels good. oh well, hoping that will pass soon. its been pretty discouraging for me.
on another note, as most of you know, my fiance julian isnt a christian, and we've all been praying for him like crazy. He's very open to talking about christianity, and has never put me down for my beliefs ( which is a good thing because if he did, he'd be out the door!) but we do talk about it quite a bit. He enjoys coming to chruch with me when he has a day off, and that has been encouraging. Anyways, last night we were talking adn we were both pretty upset with how stressed out we've been in the past 2 weeks...and he got saying that he feels like if he just had a better paying job, he'd be happy, or if he just didnt have to work, he'd be happy, saying all these things that "would make him happy" and i just felt that i should bring my faith into the conversation, so i was just saying how nothing like that will ever make you happy. and he asked how i can be so calm when everything is going nuts , and i just siad that when im really stressed or worked up about something, praying really helps, and just knowing that God will never give me more than i can handle...anyways, he went on to say that lately (within the past month) he's been almost convinced taht there has to be a 'divine being' because everytime he's really been thikning of something, or worrying about something ... he says its almost like everywhere he looks, theres an answer to it, like..."too coincidental" is what he said if i remember right, so anyways, its a step in the right direction. i burst into tears wehn he said taht, (not sad tears though!) it was just ... really good to hear, especially since i've been praying that God would just start subtly working in his life, so just keep on praying for him. He's already come a good way.